三十歲。從(新)開始!

没那么简单 Not that easy

True happiness lies in your perseverance, the thing that you always insisted on

原来放弃没有想象中简单。‘放弃’,说的容易,但更需要勇气!当你已经做头无路时,眼前只见黄河。这个时候,你才发现,你一直最想要的东西,还没实现,该怎么办?人是不是非要等到临死关头了,才来悔过当初,才会看清楚自己最想要的是什么?



我问自己:“这么做到底是对还是错?”
我回答说:“我不知道。。。怎么办?怎么办! 碰墙了,这次真的碰墙了!”


这段日子,我常常跟自己对话,自问自答。有时候觉得这样不太好,就把问题与答案写在部落格里。哈哈,你们催我update blog. 其实,我已写了些东西,只是没勇气把他们都放上来。很再看回去,发现全都是自己内心的挣扎。

说真的,我想很多,很多。很多时候,我很贪心。我把不同的问题,大的小的,友情亲情,金钱功课。。。对在一起想。结果就是,什么solution都没有!

算了,我很累了,not physically but mentally and spiritually. 所以我开始逃避问题,寻找短暂的快乐。‘我要快乐,我要快乐!’ 短暂的快乐,毕竟还是暂时性的。第二天早上睁开眼睛,现实还是赤裸摆在你眼前,躲不过。


I see my path, but I don't know where it leads. Not knowing where I am going is what inspires me to travel it.

最后,我选择了面对现实,我选择了暂停design thesis。也许你会觉得我很懦弱,在最后的关键时刻认输了,但我没有放弃!再尝试放弃的过程里,我才看到我真正要的是什么。是是非非,你的好坏,我都不想去管了。我想好好休息,用另一个角度去看自己多年以来忙碌(盲目)追求的梦想。I'm not sure what i'm doing now is correct or not, but i see my path that leads to nowhere. Not knowing where i'm going is what inspires me to travel it.



Thanks to those keep motivating me when i'm down, you know who you are. I really thank you for the advises, sms, facebook comments and for the off-pitch singing, haha... I'm not giving up. It's simply because i need more time to complete the journey. Good luck to you that are still fighting, keep it up!