Lately...

Lately
Nothing seems to be special
Everything is so usual
Or am I too usual
For things to be special

Lately
Yesterdays tend to be forgotten
Tomorrows never come late
Or am I too late
For things to be forgotten
Or am I too old
For things to be remembered

尝试与追求 Trying vs Pursuing

有时候 我觉得
我是追求尝试的成功者
也是尝试追求的失败者

Sometimes, i believe that
i'm good in trying
but not in pursuing

一半 Half

词 Lyrics：山石 ST_one 曲 Music：书荣 SooYung

Completed @ 17-07-2009 06.55pm

Verse

没有乌云掠过的夜晚

孤寂月亮还有繁星的陪伴

没人伴随在我身旁

还想有你 来为我 作伴

Pre Chorus

噢…哎… 只可惜

Chorus

你留的给我 再也不看

你能承诺的 也只是那么一半

面具撕烂 谎言被拆散

赤裸事实 总是那么 伤

你不屑

横冲直撞也不懂退让

我能实现的 也只是那么一半

对你的期盼只是过期的奢望

那些曾经过往 是否都该被遗忘

Bridge

原以为 我学会习惯

更相信生命多么无常

为何结局总是如此难堪

到了最后 我还是失常

Ending

把伤心冷藏把眼泪晒干

让你的影子随着云烟消散

抬头仰望也让微笑绽放

未来日子还很长

Click here to listen to the demo done by SooYung.

This is my first attempt in writing lyrics! So happy and thanks to SooYung coz he helped me a lot in correcting the lyrics and made it into a song. I wrote this during my painful time. I tried many ways to release my tension but finally i resorted to writing. I didn't plan to write it as a lyrics at first. Haha...

Try to write something when you cannot find yourself a way out. It may be the best way! By the way, this lyrics is not about gf-bf's love, it's about relationship. Feel free to leave your comment here!

Happiness comes in what form?

Happiness comes in what form? If happiness can be kept and never expire, please tapao for me so i can keep them for future...

(A friend of mine sent me a bag of happiness when i needed most, thank you!)

Site renovation...

Undoubtedly, blogging has become part of my life(for a person with less than 4 entries per month, haha...). I started it 2 years ago, not knowing how far i will go. I tried blogging before when i was in form 6 i think, but i don't remember the page already. Maybe it has been deleted, hehe...
Anyway, i've decided to give it a new look. The renovation work has been tendered. Works begin as soon as the contractor is ready, haha...And of course, the architect is me!

After Highrise semester...

I promised myself to write an entry about a summary of what i did in last semester(4th year 2nd sem), but it seems like this entry now is a nit late, haha...

I like to do self evaluation (so called) after a semester and try to make it a habit. I did it sem after sem, and now, come this semester, i some how... don't know why? It looks like i'm trying to avoid it. Why? AM i tired of all these already? or this is not important anymore? or i don't have the confident to face it?

Last semester, i call it Highrise. I started it in confusing mode actually. I was totally terrified by Urban (the sem before Highrise) and at one state, i was thinking of quiting. I just keep telling myself that i deserved another chance and i continue the journey in uncertainty. Surprisingly, Highrise turned out to be quite enjoyable at the begining. Of course we still have the inevitable group work (which i hate the most) to do, but it was not that heavy compared to Urban. The KL highrise case study was a nice experience for me. I visited Kompleks Dayabumi, Menara Great Eastern and UniKL. Dealing with the admins was a good learning ooportunity too.


Then comes the design part. It is a bit ... (how should say 可惜 in English? haih, lack of vocab). I used to say i believe in 'design without concept is nothing', but i did it this semester. The concept of the design is rather weak, not up to my expectation :(

Working in the studio

In the meantime, i joined an extra curicular activity, haha... I joined New Tune and participate in New Tune Live Performance in Dectar. I'm happy to get to know lots of new friends, esp. the juniors. I learned a lot of singing exercises help me to improve my singing. Hehe... Happy moment always ends very fast. After the performance, i got back to my normal and boring life.


After four years of architectural study, what disappoints me most, is the 4-year-old friendship i shared with my coursemates. One case by one case, i've been hurt. Ya, hurt, it is not exaggerating at all to use this word. Some said i've changed into another person. And yes! It is true. I've changed since then. I opted for dasar luar tertutup. I set myself a firewall.

Field trip to Kuala Terengganu (again)

Broga Hills

All in all, it was not a smooth sailing semester. With gains and loses, sacrifices are unavoidable. At least, i can still say I never regret doing architecture.